Monday, October 25, 2010

All The News That's Fit to Print

It's been pretty quiet around here, I know. I'm sorry for that. The truth is that it's been really hard for me to write lately, feeling like I have, which is mostly depressed.

I tried for a long time to figure out what was wrong with me but I can't come up with anything that feels like the "right" answer. We decided not to go forward with the house thing right now. If we wait just 8 more months we'll be in a much better position financially. And while I'm glad we're waiting, it was still a disappointment and why I didn't want to get my hopes up about a house again.

I had to quit boot camp. You can read all the reasons why over at Bodies in Motivation. I'm thinking about going back one day a week while finding other ways to exercise other days, but even the thought of going back doesn't cheer me up.

I was talking to Mr. Daddy about my feelings about boot camp and I said "I've been in a funk since I had to quit" and he said "You're ALWAYS in a funk." And that makes me sad because up until recently I was feeling pretty darn good. I don't want to seem like I'm always in a funk.

Lately I'm too busy. Overwhelmed. Underwhelmed. Frustrated. Blech.

10 comments:

Lylah at Write. Edit. Repeat. said...

Hang in there. It will get better. You are not always in a funk. This is just a valley, and soon you'll see the light hiding up there, behind the clouds.

el-e-e said...

My husband said something similar to me once. I was "pity-me-ing" about something, and he said, "You're not always a grouch [or something similar]... you're just always... serious."

Not very helpful of him.

(I hear ya on working out, too. blerghhh.) I hope the sun comes out for you soon. :)

Burgh Baby said...

Lurking at real estate listings for over a year, even though the time wasn't right, was how I found the house we ended up buying. Given that it was just appraised for $100K more than we paid a year ago (we put $20K worth of repairs into it), I'd say it paid off. I don't know if house lurking is as much fun for you as it is me, but there you go.

Hopefully Halloween will bring some smiles your way. :-)

Marianne said...

I'm really sorry you're feeling so low. xoxo

for a different kind of girl said...

I'm sorry you're feeling the way you are, and wish I had wonderful things to say that could help, but, well, you know. It's tough, and I can understand your desire to want to come out of it. I think if we can just go about day to day and be ok in those days, that's what we need to do for now...

AndreAnna said...

I wish I had something super constructive or awesome to say, but I'm sorry you're feeling this way and I'm here and that's all I've got. :(

Queen Mother said...

Maybe it would help to read your own Aug. 24th post. It is full of wisdom and, I think, timely in your present frame of mine.

Amblus said...

Hey lady, so sorry you're feeling low and I hope things get better soon. I'm guessing having to quit Boot Camp is a big part of this. Try to find a way to build in a little time for yourself, okay? Being physically active definitely helps with mental health, not just physical.

StephLove said...

I hope you are feeling better soon.

Rougeneck said...

All I can say is: been there, done that on the depressed funk thing. I had noticed you were being quiet on Twitter but I didn't put 2 and 2 together (which is weird because when I get in a funk I clam up). Anyways, it will pass. And if doesn't? Holler and I'll send you more baked goods. That's BOUND to put a smile on your face! xo